I hate the internet!

Actually, I don't hate the internet, I think it's great, but my connection has been down for a week, and it's been annoying.

I haven't been feeling too great these last few days. I feel detached from everything. I'm still doing all the things I usually do, but not getting any interest in them. Even baking isn't making me feel right. I don't know what this is, but I don't like it!

Thought I should say hello

As I say, I think I should write this, in case anyone (and I don't know how many, if anyone) reads this, and thinks I've forgotten to do this.


I'm sleeping well with diazepam, but not without, which isn't good from my point of view.

I had to go and see my GP yesterday. It seems that my lithium levels are very low. I take lithium for severe, and non-responsive depression. I hadn't been feeling right for a while, in a way that's different to the psychosis. That's been sorted out pretty well by the haloperidol. I've just been feeling low and like my head's full of sand for a while, and it turns out that my levels have been low since at least August. I'm going to try and get it sorted out on Monday, when I go to get my meds.

I'm really tired!

As I say, I'm shattered. Fortunately it's because I've been given diazepam, which is making me sleep quite well, but making me really sleepy in the daytime too. I shouldn't complain,at least I'm actually getting some sleep, I'd just like to have some control over when that happens.

My psychiatrist is going to cut down on my Olanzapine in January. It's the least effective of the 3 antipsychotics I take, and I' always appreciate efforts to have me on less pills than I am now. All I hope is that it doesn't send me back to being ill. I trust him though, and that he knows more about meds than I do.

Progress?

I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday. He was pleased with how I'm getting on,and wants to reduce or totally cut out Olanzapine (an antipsychotic). I'm not sleeping, which is not easy for me, but he's given me some diazepam, which I'm hoping will work The only reason I put a question mark in the title is that I feel like things only work for a month or two, and I can't cope with things falling apart again, I've had just about enough of being ill.

I'm doing okay

Well, the haloperidol has really made a difference to me. All the usual symptoms are still there, but are more in the background, so I can cope with them most of the time, and, when I can't, my rational mind kicks in quite quickly. I just hope it lasts.

I'm starting to think about stuff, like making things to sell with my crochet work. I' not plugging myself, I just think it might be helpful to anyone who's suffering that you can try to do things, however strange they may seem to be.