Things are starting to look up

I had a letter yesterday, telling me that an engineer would be coming to install my new equipment on Monday. This means I can finally read, and therefore write my assignments. I' hoping and praying that they won't change their minds. I've got so much to do, but I've made up my mind on which questions in 20th century literature I@m going to apply to which short story, and what sociohistorical topic I'm going to write baout, and link it with sonnets. It's good to feel a bit more settled, but no sign of making friends yet.

Finally...

Unless something fairly catastrophic happens, I'm getting my equipment for uni tomorroew, and , if I'm really lucky, they'll send an engineer the same day to set it all up. I stand by what I said in my last post, but am glad that things are moving on.

Had my bloods done at hometoday, as transport didn't turn up.

Almost had enough

I'm waiting for my uni equipment, as I've told you before. It was supposed to arrive last week, but now it's next week at the earliest. I don' like to name and shame, but Microlink PC, you're not being helpful.

Sorry its been so long

Well, things seem to be going well. The trazadone/citalopram combination works, although I think I'm going to ask for a slight increase in the citalopram. Its nice to just wake up in hte morning, and not feel totally destroyed. I@m not sayin gI@m better, that's be a stupid thing to say, but I'm fighting, and seem to be winning.

I'm getting really sick of this...

Why is it that, when you tell someone you' era schizophrenic, they run a mile? I've met people who seem totally reasonable, but the moment you tell them, they stop emialing/phoning/talking to you. I'm starting a cours on Thursday, and am dreading the "I should maybe etll you, I'm schizophrenic" moment, and they suddenly have something else to do.

I just wantto tell anyone who's reading this we're not freaks, or dangerous, we're just people with a horrible illness. Don't fear us, think about how bad it is for us. I may be a nutbag, as my brother jokingly callssne, but I'm not bad, or scary, just treat me with bit of care, and you'll see, I'm just ordinary.

A break...

My brother is going away for a few days this week. This gives me an opportunity to cook things I lieke, and to be a bi tmore adventurous in my cooking. Of course, I'll miss having him around, but I'll be glad of the break.

I went to the uni today, and everyone was very helpful. I've also got my letter saying what stuff I've got from the DSA people. Hopefullyb it's what I need.

I'm finally going to get some exercise tomorrow, going swimming and doing aqua. i've missed it, I always feel better for having done it.

Will things never go completely right?

I've just finished Moll Flanders, a book I wouldn't recommend, and was planning to start another book. U nfortunately, the only book I've been sent is Hamlet (all 18 volumes of it), and not ay of the other things I need to read. I've read and seen Hamlet recently, so it all seems a bit pointless.

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I apologise for my attempt at poetry. I try, and sometimes it works. As I've had no feedback, I've no idea if it was any good or not. Sorry agian ,, if it was bad, and , if it was good, please don't steal it an d call it you own.