Sorry I've not been around...

Well, been in hospital again, great. Only for a week this time, but it was still bad. I'm off the clozapine, as it made e ill. I'm on aripiprizole now, but it's not working. I feel crap. It's a mixture of illness and horrible memories. I'm really suffering, an d I don't know what to do.

Does Schizogirl rise again?

I feel weird today. I can't put my finger on it. I don't know if it's physical or mental. All I know is, I just don't feel right. Sometimes I hear things that upset ,
me, and won't leave my mind. I heard some horrible news stories on World Service, so that might be it. I think it's important to keep up with the news but I think I take it too far sometimes, and put myself through too much.

Yes! (she says, punching the air)

I'm getting a guide dog! I've been put on the waiting list, which is about 6-9 months. The time will fly by, I'm so excited.

Also, I've been off lithium for over a week, with no adverse effects. The blisters in my mouth are gone, and I feel less physically "slow" in my movements, more coordinated.

I star the cookery next week, all I need now is the literature course to come through, and I'll be set. Life finally seems to be working out for me. It's only taken 27 years!

I've just found out that my final guide dog assessment is on Thursday at 9.30. It's the last thing I have to do, before I'm either acceptd or rejected from the programme. I'm both nervous and excited. I'm going to make some muffins for them.

Other than that, I'm doing really well. I've been off lithium since Sunday, and I'm feeling so much better physically. My mouth isn't blistered, I can drink hot drinks and eat hot curries, it's great!

It'd better be worth it...

I had the contraceptive implant put in my arm on Friday. I suffer very badly with my periods, and this seems to be the best way of helping. I should have 3 years of less trouble. This is all well and good, but it's not without its drawbacks. It didn't hurt having it put, in, they give you a local anaesthetic, it just feels a bit weird. Then, when this wears off, you feel a bit bruised. I don't know about anyone else, but my arm is black around th e implant. It's so bruised, and hurts. But, if it helps, I can live with a few days of discomfort. I'm sorry to moan, but I think anyone thinking about it should know. Don't let it put you off, I'm certain it's going to be worth it, just be prepared...

Muffins!

I've made cinnamon muffins today, and they worked. I love making muffins, it's so easy, and the results are almost always satisfying. It's hard to make a mess of them, and Betty Crocker ones cost more. Don't get me wrong, they're good, but you can make your own much cheaper, if you can get hold of blueberries. They cost so much, but I've got a friend who grows them, so I'm lucky.

I'm feeling really well today. I'm a bit sick of being treated like I don't have feelings, like I'm a blind schizophrenic lump, but other than that, I'm okay. The jumper I'm making is going well, as are the evening bags. Life is generally good, for a change, and I intend to make the most of it, while it lasts.

Slow news day...

I' doing well coming off lithium. I haven't had any problems, and feel physically much better. My social worker was pleasantly surprised about this.
As the title says, its a slow news day, not much has happened, I just thought I'd say hello.