I feel almost "normal"

I can hardly believe it, I feel like I'm supposed to! My anti-psychotics are working, so is the morphine. I'm off the gabapentin, so I'm only on 4 meds now. It's great. I don't know how long it will last, and, to be honest, I don't care. If I can feel like this for just a few weeks, that's enough for me. I don't ask much out of life, but to feel good for a while is what I really want.

Morphine

I'm currently on morphine. It's working, the pain's been dulled to a level I can cope with, but I feel really weird. I'm also very tired. I'm a bit worried about what my psychiatrist is going to say though. I see him tomorrow morning, so we'll see. If he can come up with an alternative that works, and doesn't make me feel so crap, I'll take it, but I don't want to stop the morphine unless I know the alternative will be as effective. I'm sick of being in severe pain, with no prospect of it ever getting any better. My big worry is addiction. I will get addicted to morphine if I stay on it longterm, but what can I do? Is it worth it?

Positives and negatives

Life's made up of positives and negatives. I've got a bit of both at the moment.

Positives:
I'm still feeling better. The new meds are definitely working.
I've got a new toy. A talking mobile phone. Brilliant! I can now text people, and don't need to remember all of my friends' phone numbers.


Negative
My pain relief is still not working. I'm now on 2.4g of Gabapentin, and 150 mg of Diclofenac, and I'm still in a lot of pain. Ah well...

Thank God...

I'm feeling better! I can't believe it. The meds are actually working, and it's only taken about a week. I felt better yesterday, but didn't like to say anything, in case it was a fluke, but this doesn't seem to be. All I can say is: long may it continue.

Unfortunately, the Risperidone seems to have stopped the Gabapentin working, so I'm in a lot of pain. I'm going to the GP today to talk painkillers. I'll let you know how it goes.

New meds (again)

I went to see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I was supposed to go into hospital, but they're not accepting female patients in my local hospital, and there's nowhere else I could go. So, I saw the doc. He's increased my Aripiprizole, which is usually only up to 30 mg, but in extreme cases can be more than that, so I'm now on 45 mg. He's also changed my Quetiapine to Risperidone, and taken me off the Haldol and Chlorpromazine. I'm hopeful, but it's hard to be, when you've been on so many different drugs. You hope every time, and then your hopes are dashed. I'm trying to be positive, but it's difficult.
I'm a little worried, as since I've started the new meds, I ache all over, and have a horrible headache. I'm hoping I'm just coming down with a bad cold or the flu.

Hospital (again)

I'm going into hospital some time next week. I'll probably be in for at least 2 weeks, but most likely longer. I'm not happy about it, but it's the best thing for me I know. I'm going to come off my meds, and start again (again! They did this last year, let's hope it's more successful this time). I'll be in touch when I can...

I hate pain!

I fell over my cat on Friday, and badly sprained my wrist. It hurts, lots, and I'm sick of it already. I can't do stuff like crochet or cook, I can't swim, it's SO annoying!