I'm finally going to get some exercise tomorrow, going swimming and doing aqua. i've missed it, I always feel better for having done it.

Will things never go completely right?

I've just finished Moll Flanders, a book I wouldn't recommend, and was planning to start another book. U nfortunately, the only book I've been sent is Hamlet (all 18 volumes of it), and not ay of the other things I need to read. I've read and seen Hamlet recently, so it all seems a bit pointless.

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I apologise for my attempt at poetry. I try, and sometimes it works. As I've had no feedback, I've no idea if it was any good or not. Sorry agian ,, if it was bad, and , if it was good, please don't steal it an d call it you own.

I'm tired of being a "schizo",
Of being thought a freak.
I'm tired of feeling worthless
I'm tired of feeling weak.
I'm tired of fighting every day,
As is it were my last,
I'm tired of all the memories,
The pain that's from the past.

Fear?

I'm starting at university in a month, and I'm terrified about being alone. Will someone take it upon htemselves to take me for coffee? Will I be able to keep up with the reading? Will this horrible depression lift in time?

All I can do is hope and pray that it all goes well, and that my fears are unfounded.

Happy Christmas

It's Christmas Eve, and I'm getting to the point I do every day, when I'm sick of being up, and go to bed rediculously early. So, I'll wish anyone reading this as happier Christmas as they can have. Mine won't be easy, I'm severely depressed and anxious, but I'll try my best to enjoy it.

Take care of yourselves, I@ll do my best to do the same...

More new meds

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday. He's changed my antidepressant from Clomipramine to citalopram and trazodone, which will help calme me down too. A swell as that, he's given me diazepam, to help when things are really bad.

I've ogt a month of this, to see how it goes. All I ccan do is hope and pray that they do.