Melatonin

Well, I saw another pair of crisis team people today, a social worker and a doctor. They agree with my usual psychiatrist that I should start back on Clozapine, which, if it didn't go toxic on me again, would be great. The doctor also suggested I go on Melatonin, to help me sleep. To be honest, I'd try almost anything to help me sleep, I'm desperate. I'm just worried about the Clozapine going toxic, as it made me so ill last time, but I have to believe the doctors know what they're doing. I still don't know which hospital I'll be going to, but it's definite that I will be going in, for a "short" admission (I don't know how long "short" will be, but last time I was put on it, it was about 3 weeks) I suppose I'll just have to take things as they come. At least I'll have time to make those blanket squares I promised my friend, all clouds have a silver lining!

Readmission

I went to see my psychiatrist yesterday, and he referred me to the crisis team. I saw them today, and they were slightly more tolerant and less stupid than usual. I'm being admitted to hospital within the next few days, and I don't know how long I'm going to be in there. Hopefully not too long. I don't know what they're going to do about my medication, but possibly I'll be going back on Clozapine. I'm not sure how I feel about that, as it was very serious when it went toxic last year, but it did help a lot with my schizophrenia, so maybe it'd be a good thing. Only time will tell.

Thank you

I want to say thanks to my friends, for all their prayers, love and support, they've really stuck by me, when no-one else has.

I'm annoyed!

My psychiatrist was supposed to phone me yesterday, to talk about how things were going. He didn't, and I phoned the hospital to speak to him today. He wasn't there, but my social worker was then supposed to phone me. Again, he didn't. I feel like I'm just being left to go quietly mad, and nobody in the hospital system actually cares.