I had a falling out with Mikie this morning. I don't know what I did, but now he's not speaking to me. I keep apologising, but I have a horrible thought that I accused him of being part of The System. That's the worst thing I could ever say to him. I know it's not true, I just get so worked up and scared, I don't always realise what I'm saying until I've said it. I really hope he forgives me, as he's the best friend I've got.